I have backed out of participating in the project Twins in Twain. Today the artist contract came, and the deadline is unattainable for me.
If I was not going to Vancouver it would not be a problem, but not one possible silk screener contacted me back about doing the silk screens during the time I’d be gone.
I worked hard on the concept and feel frustrated that I will not be able to bring it to fruition. If only I had known I would have not put so much time into it, and instead worked more on preparing for the project Crossing I-805
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It is what it is.
Knowing I will be spending time with my Mom makes it all good.
I feel as though I must be careful suggesting possibilities to my sister about our mother.
She gets very short and snappy whenever I do. I get the feeling she does not want me to make any suggestions. Like it is not my place to do so, maybe because I don’t leave up there. Maybe she is very overwhelmed.
I get hurt by this, and must figure out a way not be be, otherwise my interactions with my sister will go very badly while I’m up there. I must let those feeling go, not attach to them.
It may be best not to make any suggestions to her, keep my mouth shut, and my opinions to myself. I will have to see if I can hold back, and do so.
I can and will talk to my Mom and Dad. Right now my Mom will not remember, so I don’t have to worry about her telling my sister.